had a talk with my mom today..she was telling us ( my 2 sisters and i)about the past and what we were like when we were young. lol!! just found out that i was born prematurely cos of some embaressing reason(cannot say!! >< lol!!) . if not, my birthday could have been the same as my dad's. man..it was just a matter of few hours..well it was close..haha. it seemed that we three siblings are pretty special when we were young..cos we each had different problems, and they were very weird ones (not elaborating though..haha!!)..that is why i do not like to celebrate my birthday, cos my birthday is also the day when my mother suffers...i always feel bad on my birthdays..haha weird i must say...not many ppl feel that way.. =]
then she talked about how our grandma passed away..i was only 11 when she died and i still remembered it well...well my grandma suffered alot during her final years..it was very heartbreaking. her death was painful right till the end..i miss her. my mom said that grandma always loved me the most and would always protect me when my mom wanted to cane me for doing something wrong...i still remember her features well, eventhough she died a long time ago and i was still very young then...sigh...felt like crying just now. although my mom did not cry, i could see tears forming in her eyes. she always said that life is a delicate thing and we have to cherish evrything we have, cos we never know when our time is up. i really want to do something for my mom..i do not want to wait till its too late. cos i know i will regret it for the rest of my life if i dont.......