im turning from bad to worse in just a couple of weeks. my attitude stinks and i really lost all hope and concern for anything. im just living my life since i have to. like i cant just stop time and pause my life. life is what happens when you're making decisions for it. its just so damn frustrating when you do not get what you want and when nobody understands you. its like im caught between every bad thing thats gonna happen or has alrdy happened. even i dont know what im talking about. im just so damn bloody hell tired and confused inside. theres just so much to do and with so little returns. i dont see the point in life anymore. you work so hard for the majority of your miserable life and just when you are about to enjoy your harvest, you kick the bucket. its just reality that evryones just trying to escape from. everyone just cares about their own stinking ass and never spare a thought for anyone else. thats just the irony of things..just when you thought mankind has advanced a step in many aspects of life, the draw back of those successes are the lost of humanity. we are all like wearing a disguise, pretending to be who we are not just to please another or just to fit in...i for one am sick and tired of all these. i dont wanna be the victim of hurt no more. enough is enough...i start living as of now...the old me is no more...welcome the emotionless new me...