i sat up the whole night wondering about life and how i should continue. nothing seems to go right for me these few weeks and im rather sick of being pushed around. i cant seem to focus, im becoming very emotional..and its always at the wrong time. the things that i want always seem so near but in actual fact its always beyond my reach. i am always aimming for something that is always too good for me..can anybody tell me whats going on? why is this happening? am i cursed to live this kinda life forever? i want answers...i want love...
is it too much to ask for? i mean..must she always hurt me? sometimes its the small little things that one does to make or break another. she has ignored my msgs for exactly one week now...and counting. i really feel like giving up at times but yet my heart tells me to go on. but is it worth it? some people tell me that i deserve better and i should just forget about it...but i've never thought of getting anyone better than her. i really really love her...but does she care? no...i have never cared for anyone outside my family so much before..but i guess no one appreciates my concern. im really sick of being taken for granted and im sick of hurting myself time and time again. i really wish that someone can come and take this all away...