well its christmas eve and things have been going from bad to worse really. well the first thing on my agenda was to go out with the cg. but i wasnt really feeling all that well. infact i was feeling abit dizzy...and to make matters worse, didnt really enjoy myself la. didnt interact much, felt so distant from the people. well at least i showed my face. now im feeling so darn tired that im missing my own family's get together party. man...life sucks.
every year, christmas has just been another holiday to me. nothing special. i always wanted to spend it with someone. but as usual im left alone in my room infront of my com and its raining for god's sake...its like SO COLD!!! ok maybe bcos im sick but pathetic right? lol. man.. was hoping to go out and watch a movie with 'her'. but as usual, shot right down(not really surprising),but it still hurts even for something so simple. guess tmr is going to be a very boring christmas like always...
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!